EUREKA! My major breakthrough

So over the past few days I’ve come up with a new theory on why men walk.

My theory is that when a guy leaves quickly or treats you badly, or gives the excuse “I don’t want a relationship” or does want a relationship but isn’t willing to put in the effort, then he has been hurt in the past.

For example, my ex broke up with me suddenly a month and a half in saying he was confused. He told me he wanted that serious relationship where you get married, but told me I was talking about the future too much when I made a reference to Valentines day. Then I remembered that his first serious girlfriend  cheated on him. Not only that but he walked in and found her in bed with another guy. Since then he has had a string of unsuccessful relationships that only lasted a max of 4 months. 

  • When I spoke to one of my guy friends yesterday he said he couldn’t stand being in a relationship, I asked but he said he didn’t know why. So I used the same logic. I asked him, “When was your last relationship?”, he replied “Last year” and told me it ended because he slept with another girl. I told him I wanted him to dig deeper. Had he ever been hurt in a relationship?

     

     

    He told me about his first serious relationship and first love. After losing his virginity to her he was head over heels. At the time they both lived in Tenerife. She went on holiday to the UK for a week. She didn’t come back after the 1st week but said she’d stay another. She didn’t come back again and said she’d be staying for a month. At the end of that month she didn’t come back and he demanded to know the truth.

     

     

    She had moved to the UK, but didn’t want to tell him the truth as she didn’t want to lose him.

     

     

  • My conclusion: after a guy has been hurt he does not want to make that kind of commitment and does not want to be as open with a girl again, because he is scared he will be hurt just like the last time. Until he let’s himself open up and relax in a relationship, he will maintain this endless cycle of one night stands or short term relationships always wondering what it would be like to be in love again.   

I thought Men were like elastic bands?

So, a few days ago I met up with a guy i’d been seeing for a while, and we went out shopping, watched a film and went for a meal. However, he seemed to be acting weird. I couldn’t point out anything definite, but he wasn’t how he usually was with me. I was racking my brain wondering what I had done wrong. He got annoyed finding the car park, when we watched the film he wanted to concentrate rather than do couple-y things like kiss or cuddle, and then when we went for the meal out it was like he couldn’t eat it any faster so he could take me home. On the way back he said he’d just go home and go to bed rather than come in.

At that point I confronted him. What was his problem? Apparently i’d been clingy, especially when I saw his parents last week and HE put HIS arm around ME. He then said that it had scared him when I said we should book somewhere for Valentines day, and when I told him that I would be going on holiday in June, but knew it was too soon for us to go on holiday together. He then asked me what kind of relationship I thought we were in, well after he’d shared all of those thoughts with me all I could say was, “A fun one?”. Instead he said we were in a serious relationship and that Ideally he wanted to be in the big serious one where we would get married etc. This completely confused me.

After I left he didn’t text me that evening, he didn’t text me on the Saturday or Sunday and briefly text me on the Monday. Of course then I started freaking out. Why had he acted that way?

Then I remembered a book I’d started reading a while ago: “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus”. There was a Chapter stating that Men were like rubber bands, sometimes when they were in a relationship they would freak out because of how intimate they were being with another person. It said that they needed their space and they needed to be independent for a while. It also said that Women were like waves, and that sometimes when a Man did this, it triggered a Woman’s wave to crash. She would start worrying about what she had done. Well this sounded familiar, so I gave him his space. I accepted that he would come springing back once he had had the space he needed.

Until, he decided to break up with me yesterday afternoon. He had spoken to his friends and they had agreed that he shouldn’t be in a relationship with me. Which bothers me because he spoke to his friends about his feelings before discussing a possible solution with me. Apparently, that Friday we had argued, but as far as I’m concerned that wasn’t an argument. He said he needed to be in a relationship where he was happy ALL THE TIME. But, I honestly don’t think that kind of relationship exists.

Something I wonder is, if he is so keen on being in a serious relationship, why is it that he doesn’t stay with anyone past the first few months? To me, it sounds like he doesn’t know what he wants. It sounds like he is more in love with the idea of love, than actually working at a relationship.

So of course I’ve cried, and i’ve eaten chocolate and Ben and Jerry’s. And i’ve thought about it, and what I could have done wrong. But, what annoys me the most is that no matter how much he spoke about his feelings, he didn’t actually explain why he broke up with me. So, now I have agreed not to punish myself, instead I am surrounding myself with my friends and i’m trying to get back to normal. Because, it is hard breaking up with someone, no matter how long it’s been. So sometimes i’ll just feel pure hatred towards him, but sometimes I feel so upset that I know that if he came back and asked for another chance, i’d give it to him. I’m confused and fed up. It’s hard to break up with someone and move on once you’ve been so intimate with someone. I feel disappointed, I feel used and I can’t believe how foolish I was to let him lead me on. Obviously, he isn’t the guy for me after all.

The only conclusion I have is that this rubber band doesn’t know that he can stretch and come back. He only thinks he can snap.